know in my heart, this is over. I haven't been able to say that before. To much resentment and hurt I caused during those years and this is the second time in 3 years. She did come back, but I truly believe more because of how she saw it was affecting the kids, who are adults, but also how it affected me. I think when she came back we did improve our relationship a lot, but not to the point where she was still totally content and happy, to much past luggage from past. When we meet on Thursday, I too wanted the divorce and we would work thru it to find a closure and fair settlement and she was much more receptive to me. I want someone who truly wants to be with me, flaws and all and who I can start fresh with and not have the mistakes of my past affect the relationship. Tough days are ahead, but also fresh starts as well.
There is a sadness and resignation to this post. I'm sorry things in your sitch have gotten to this point. It does sound like you're starting to accept where things stand. You've done a good job of self-refection and recognize your past failings, which is good. Unfortunately we can't go back and change the past; we can only move forward and act differently for the future. As hard and painful as it is and will be, use the lessons you've learned to improve and make a great life for yourself.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21
