I understand your emotions and what you're going through. I've been there - putting the kid 1yo and 4yo kids to bed while my ExW "worked late" with her coworker; waking up at 3am to sneakily read through their text messages from the previous day. It's awful. Her behaviors are immoral and wrong, and you have every right to be hurt and angry.
The thing is, as difficult as it is, the confrontations and reasonings and the 6am car horn sessions outside OM's house are not going to help. They may feel good in the moment but will leave you empty and worse off in the long run.
You're spinning, and that's understandable. Take a breath, go to counseling, start walking/running/working out. It's extremely difficult but try to put your focus 100% on YOU and not HER. That's the best way to get you feeling better and moving forward.
Hang in there. Keeping engaged here and talking to us with help too.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21
