Core - Still Alive #7?

[Core]

I'm starting to think Ive been hopping on here as a distraction. I also spent more than enough time playing a classic game today. So easy to get hooked in. Now what I'm wondering is it the dopamine hits that are drawing me in or worse, is it the existential crisis that crawls its way through my mind when I achieve stillness. I thought I figured my way through the last stare in to the abyss but when I was relaxing the other day, my brain thought of more possibilities, ruining the peace I had achieved. I suppose I've been avoiding that discomfort and better face it before more time is wasted on a game. I'm not entirely confident I can solve it this time as the holes I poked in to my solution are pretty big.

80 hours on a game since Black Friday. Cant imagine what else I could've gone with that time.

I have something I want to do thats productive, but the laws, rules and restrictions are so boring, I can feel my heartrate cut in half when I'm like three sentences in to reading the legal mumbo. And in the end its all interpretation anyway. For example, "no harsh language", well um, we can't even agree on what a man and woman are so how is one supposed to know what is allowed?

I have the kids tomorrow thankfully. They are getting big so fast. Enjoying holding them while I can.