You're dealing with a lot. Your pregnancy, Gestational Diabetes, your H's affair, your dad's potential cancer. That must be incredibly difficult. Try to take some time to step back and breath. You will get through this.
Thank you, BL42 and LH19. I had an individual counselling session last week and one of the main things that stood out from this session was that I may have not really taken enough time to sit with my feelings and really mourn. I have been so busy distracting myself as much as I could, that feelings tend to creep up on me and I will get into the same ineffective mind reading exercise. I am taking one or two day off work this week to do this, and to step back and breathe.