Haha! Only 2 beers. But I don’t drink much anymore so I’m becoming a bit of a lightweight. I’m working a long OT day today, had to go easy.
Someone sent me something from YouTube today that spoke of the “dark triad” which had me a little lost. But I got the gist. The overly nice complimentary people pleasing men are trying to get what they want . Then you have the guys who aren’t afraid to say no, can be meaningful with their compliments which Carries more weight usually. It shows strength. And I feel when I am validated meaningfully, complimented meaningfully, it means so much more and seems much more real and I am comfortable with that. Only in the middle of the two extremes is comfortable to me because it feels much more real to me and not gamey.
I do enjoy my Ginger time. My winter activity is Hot yoga and I’ve been enjoying that. Now that the nicer weather is here, I am looking forward to hiking and I have made a promise to make more time for it. I’m just emotionally lonely. It’s not so much as a physical presence I am lonely for. That’s that emotional intimate connection that I don’t have that is reason for my loneliness. I can entertain myself just fine, I’m usually pretty busy and I do have a little bit of a social life.
As far as physical attributes. I think once you reach a certain age, attractiveness is in the eye of the beholder. By 40 there are so many different shapes and sizes of people, different changes each gender’s body goes through, babies that were had, hair that was lost, lol. We aren’t what we used to be, that’s for sure, and I think with that, most of us look at attractiveness differently. I have some defining features that are likely to be really attractive to one guy because those features carry weight for them. Another guy might find those features attractive, but they don’t carry too much weight for them. I am a sucker for a guy with a dark beard and light eyes. Drives me nuts. I am also turned on by blue collar types and a guy in a nice suit is nice and all, but won’t get me going like a guy in a nice fitting pair of jeans and a t shirt who is a little rough around the edges. So I don’t think at my age it’s so much “hot by societies standards” anymore. It’s hot by our own. But I do not try to rule out someone I am not immediately wowed by their pictures, because I think we could possibly lose out on some truly great people in this world by saying “ hmmmm, legs are too skinny” or “ she got a little bit of a belly”
Just interested in finding someone who accepts me as I am and vice versa and thinks I’m cute and vice versa. We make eachother laugh, we don’t just people please and we keep it real because we can because we are comfortable with ourselves
