The last week has been quite hard. It is one of those situations where you thought, what's the worst that could happen, and then the worst did. I found out my Dad might have cancer and Ob found I have dangerously low iron level and Gestational Diabetes. I know most of these things are manageable nowadays, but on top of all the emotional lows brought by the separation and also being pregnant, it is just a bit too much. Despite everything, I always look forward to seeing my friends in the weekends and sometime I do stay over. It is a Godsend when it comes to relieving my stress and anxiety, as well as just generally making me feel more of myself again. H and I normally arrange weekend visits at the start of the week and this week has been a little different because of a holiday we had on Monday. He just said yesterday that he could not come on Saturday, and I told him, OK,I can go on Sunday until Monday. I thought I was being reasonable and I did not push him to be available on the day where he said he could not. I also did not pry into what he's doing or where he's going, but the minute I said I am going Sunday to Monday, he said "well, I have to see and ask first," and he kept asking why, what I'm doing, and where I'm going. I don't know whether I want to say much about what I'm doing, because I did not ask that of him, and so what if I am away, he is the one who chose to leave. Surely he does not get to have much say in it as he chose to leave this relationship, but should I even share any of this to him? And does he have the right to say anything to what I do? I know that he might be pressured by the OW, but am I wrong to think that that I should not be pressured as well? It is his issue with the OW. It just seems like he does not fully understand the consequences of him deciding to leave, especially when it comes to not knowing where I am or what I am doing.
