Clearly a glutton for punishment

[Core]

I do still want that stuff. But from someone I actually know. It’s kind of creepy and pressure filled from someone I haven’t met. And he’s super insecure. I told him to lick the place, he picked a chain restaurant, no big deal, and he asked which location and I said it didn’t matter they are all the same. Then he thought that I didn’t like where he chose and he got defensive. I said it was a fine choice. Then he asked me if I wanted him to pick me up ( heck no) and then said 6 or 6:30, then told me is so excited and can’t wait. He’s honestly making me uncomfortable. I did actually tell him to chill with the texts ( in a very nice way) yesterday.

This sounds awful, like he is stepping around mines that dont exist, is afraid to lead, or afraid to do something wrong. Either way, unless you've become super harden from all the joys over the years, your empathy will pick up amd feel the insecure vibes he is putting out, making for a loong date.

I appreciate everyone’s kind comments. I am a decent person. I am genuinely myself, I just can’t figure this dating thing out for the life of me. Abs it’s become way more frustrating, way more difficult, and I am becoming way less tolerant. I need to be knocked out of the park these days. I am also too judgemental and I can find a red flag anywhere. I feel disconnected from every guy I meet. Nothing feels good anymore.

The problem with being aware of red flags is you now can see them everywhere, and they get easier and easier to spot. No one will be perfect however, I think we all have a couple red flags. The question is how much or which could, would or should you tolerate. I think your feelings are totally normal with what youve been through and your level of awareness now. If you've ever seen the Matrix, I liken it to Cypher plugging himself back in. He wants to go back to the fantasy. Reality is we are all broken and the older we get, the more broken the dating market is. Sadly almost everyone is beaten, bruised, intolerable, cautious or mentally unwell to a point.

I honestly hate that this is the part of my life I’m failing in.

While you feel youre failing in this part of life, are you exceeding in others?