I think your anxiety and depression would benefit from some of that “feminine energy” (sorry but that’s a ridiculous thing to say) of interacting with people in need by doing something like Meals on Wheels. You need to get out of your own head and develop some empathy. Do you think Christ had “feminine energy” when he washed Mary Magdalene’s feet? I don’t know what bible you’re reading, but Christ most definitely would have taken food to shut-ins. I suggest you try it. I honestly believe it will help you with your depression and anxiety.