So making a great difference in the life of some individuals that maybe they decide they want to live another day because you helped out isn’t worth it because the negative outweighs it to you? Because you as one person can’t overhaul the world, it’s not worth making a few individual lives more livable?
You are beyond depressed my friend. And I am guessing you had a bad experience with an anti-depressant. But I can’t see how not trying a new one can put weight the heavy depression and doom and gloom you are immersed in.
You have kids. Something bigger than you. Something bigger than the government. Your kids. There is no way this isn’t leaking over to them.
Start small. Rome wasn’t built in a day, was it? I really hope you find a way to start digging yourself out, even if for your kids sake. You deserve it too .
