I know I need to find a new IC. But the hard part is I have so many things I HAVE to do…and the added stress of finding one is also a burden that I am struggling to handle. The more I have learned about relationships (healthy and unhealthy) and the more I realize that I have a lot of emotional stuff I am left to deal with, on top of the stress of D and moving, and my job situation not going well. It’s a bit overwhelming at the moment. So I just keep trying to make it one day at a time. I know it’s no replacement but I am reading self-help books and putting some energy into my healing and moving forward. So I’m not shut down. There is progress. But I also realize that I can only take myself so far. I just need to get through the next few months and hopefully I can have the energy to take on finding a good IC specializing in MLC, betrayal trauma, and narcissistic abuse.
Perhaps you could see IC as a tool to help with all of the other stress. Perspective can have a strong hold on how we make our decisions. What if you saw as a self care tool? A tool that can provide guidance of how to deal with the stress, moving, job situation? What if you saw it as aid versus a burden? Just some suggestions to sit with.
You will go back when you are ready. Continuing to be aware and open to the idea is being way ahead of the game.
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
