Hi Core. Nice to see you are still hanging around and hopefully finding some support on this forum. I concur with others that you sound depressed but I also agree that all of the things going on in the world make it difficult to see a good future for our kids. I am having a hard time with this as well. I think all you can do is look for the positives and do your best to be a helper and not a “hurter”…probably not an actual word but you get what I mean. Sorry to hear you are living in a violent area. That is an extra burden to bear for sure. Hope that opportunity you are looking for presents itself soon and your ex gets on board. (((HUGS)))