Core - Still Alive #7?

[Core]

Hi BL42,

I'm thinking my sitch history has been purged from when the forums updated. Our sitches were similar in alot of ways, although many are. The tend to follow a script. Glad to see the familiar face.

Hi LH,

Very glad to hear from you as well. Probably been close to a year since I hopped on here.

Yeah I am down to 4 years before I can pick up and leave and that seems like a long time.

Excellent to have an end in sight, something to work towards and that you may have more peace coming in the future. With the nature of things, and the pace of change, I can completely understand it feeling a long ways out.

Alas as my goals seem impossible to achieve, I kind of just do enough to get by, while waiting for an opportunity.

This does not sound good. Is your body where you want it? Are you good financially? Any new hobbies?

My body is about where I went it, minus blood pressure which I cant seem to beat. I have a good house now. Financially stable at this time thankfully, but the ex on top of the economy eliminated my goal of likely retiring before 65 to 60. Thing is, I don't really care for a new hobby, new goals, to accomplish old goals. Sounds like a form of depression but really I don't see much reason to. Since BD with the Ex, I've been so called red and black pilled to oblivion and I just see so much evil in the world. I don't foresee a pleasant future. The trends going on will lead to amounts of suffering perhaps not experienced in ages and well, with whats seems to come next historically and it all being out of my control, paying off my house, or learning to drum, has little meaning for me. I've been wrong with things before so I'm hoping things turn around. I teach my kids, try to guide them through all the normal hurdles of the past, and all these new unnecessary modern hurdles, I take the take to hold them, play, and that's all that seems worth doing at this moment. Almost like I'm just waiting for something to happen, so I can take action again.