Core - Still Alive #7?

[Core]

Hey All,

I lurk here and there to see how you all are doing. Happy to see familiar names still improving, and still continuing to give advice.

This board is something else, a rare bastion of genuine support, help and human compassion.

I still don't see myself being of help on the forums here as I almost know too much from my journey. I almost regret working to save my marriage and feel like an idiot for wasting so much time, holding out hope and not being a man of action and ending it right after I caught the EA. For this reason, my help would be pro divorce biased when there is an affair and I don't want to promote divorce.

I'm doing pretty well considering the environment of the world and my state. My kids more importantly are thriving. I never imagined them doing this well. Smart, adorable, get along well. Talk well with other kids and with known adults. All around fun to be around, D5 bringing kindness and S3 bringing humor to the world.

I myself am in a rut. I want to leave the state, and get my kids somewhere less violent and where it better suits my culture however the only way to do that, would be to convince the ex to move
Which isnt happening, she keeps her head in the sand as to whats happening around our area.

Alas as my goals seem impossible to achieve, I kind of just do enough to get by, while waiting for an opportunity.

Thats all for now. My main point before venting was to say Hi and thank you vets for continuing to help people going through heartbreak.