As for the reasons people divorce. They are quite simple. I do not feel you like me. I do not feel you love me. I do not feel you respect me. Research documented by Gottman.
I remember the last relationship talk we had I said "I am sorry I didn't make you feel more loved" she said "that's not it I always felt you loved me". Pretty sure mine was the third. She would say it sometimes. She wasn't wrong. Some of her actions and choices I did not respect but I should have handled it better. I also accept at the time we did not have the proper communication tools. Its easy to get into a rut.
There were maybe psuedo relationship talk about a month ago. Sometimes he would get angry and make statements like "you get to pursue what you want" sort of in an envious tone... or I would get the pensive "do you think you could be different with me?"... to the defensive "you want to impress me then go out and find a new, nice guy"... the pouty "you already have another guy on the line". Leading up to that month was more exploration on his part like "how was your day?", "good weekend", "is this pink eye".
Maybe if I could have just continued more just being pleasant and not having expectations he would have ventured even more close but it seems like he's a ferral cat darting back into the alley.
I just don't have the energy right now. It doesn't mean I don't have the desire. I'm okay either way. I've a got 10 day adventure to WI and in April I've booked travel with myself and my dog to do underground kyaking (dog will not be kyaking... LOL). I'm still mastering the uke. Just bought tix to opening day of our minor bb team. I'm not sitting in my castle hoping to be rescued by some man; I can rescue myself.
