Its gonna take a bit to get my heart unbroke from this... but I will not be chasing him like I did last time.
Kit, I get you’re feeling heartbroken and I’m sorry you’re going through that ((hugs)). Feeling hearttbroken for someone you barely know after two dates (and again after another two dates) is unusual, but we get you’ve never taken enough space from XH to fully grieve, nor gotten therapy. Would you be willing to block and no contact pilot? Hereby, letting go of the hope that someday he’ll change and text you for more? Reducing the toxic (for you) man count in your life from 2 to 1 would be a success. It’s not easy, but once the chord is 100% cut you can more fully grieve and move on.