Bttyfly, Yes, it is a illness, I have talked to my counsler about it and what it does to a persons brain. It shuts down parts of the brain that control logical thought. H had 3 DUI's in his early 20's and the forth one when he was 41ish. Nothing I can do about it. He is not going to make this right. Right now I have to focus, I just had the worst anxitey attack, called my sister and talked me through it. Never had one that bad, my brain just went off the rails, hard to explain. Took everything I had to just get through the last 3 hours.
