Thanks LH, 2 years!!! I can't stay like this for 2 years.
I hate no contact, but I am seeing that having contact is causing me to spiral. Ever time I expect to talk to my old H, and it isn't him, he is not in there right now. Although he says, " I am the same person I have always been:...then he is nice to me and talks to me about what our friends are up to..why??? why be nice, why talk to me about these things? And then blow up and start spewing stuff that came out of him over this last summer??? I cant take all of the mixed messages anymore.
I used to be such a strong confident women, this is wrecking me. My head gets it, my heart doesn't want to let go. But I have to stop this, I can not continue to feel like this, it is breaking me. I know I have to let go of who I thought he was.
If anyone ever invents a pill to cure MLC, they would be rich.....
