Stella I’m really sorry you’re struggling. This is why no contact is so important. If you go to the newcomers thread and read KitKats story she’s been doing the same thing for two years now and refuses to block him and it is emotionally breaking her. These leeches will try anything to keep you emotionally invested. It took my exw about 18 months to realize that I will discuss nothing but minimal amount to coparent. Take care and be patient with yourself.