KK can correct me if I’m wrong. I think the pilot is a pawn in the game to win the ex back. I think the pilot could care less as long as KK is ready to go at his beckoned call.
I think there is value to retrying to make a connection with ex but you better find out quick if it’s all about sex. If not you are going to get burned bad again.
I disagree that Pilot is a pawn.
I like him. I really do. I'm really attracted him. I really want to have sex but I know that if I don't go a little slow I could mess this up. And, I want to do it right this time!!! I get that its complicated because we have prior history and have had sex. I don't know what happened... We had such a nice dinner out together that ended pretty nice. To say I'm not disappointed is a lie.
It is what it is....
As for my XH. I see how much he has worked on himself... I think he has seen how much I've worked on things. I need to sleep on today's text exchanges. I'm not sure if the wall if coming back up or if some bricks came down. I had to walk away today because I was becoming emotionally flooded.
Right now as of this moment - I'm throwing my hands up in the air and walking away from both.
I'm going to work on packing. I leave in 10 days for a trip to Lake Geneva. I'm going to focus on myself and enjoying a disconnect from life for awhile.
