I mean, if you have no desire to be either of their number one’s and that isn’t your true desire or end goal, all the more power to you.
If you want something serious out of either of them, and you are just taking what you can get, you might want to reevaluate
How about just accepting that I'm currently happy living my life as it is --- not having expectations. My end goal is focusing on myself and what works for me at this current point in my life.
Maybe, I get my feelings hurt. Maybe, I don't. Maybe I'm okay because I'm not living my life outcome dependent.