7 1/2 years later...I'm trying

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@ginger, thank you! Yes, our situations, at least the impetus of them, are very similar. You seem to be in a much better place of acceptance, and I hope to be there someday. Like you, I've been doing this since S8 was S1. I never thought this was going to be long term. You hit the nail on the head with the support comment. It's hard to feel like I'll ever get support I want, deserve and will reciprocate from a partner who is deeply committed to their "original" family, seems like a very big expectation on my part.