I set a few goals for the year and one is to COMPLETLEY let her go. I mostly have but as with any long-term love I can’t just forget about her. It's always been that way for me with GFs. I know, most of you might say “STILL??!”. But yeah, some unconscious part of me misses her and what we had from time to time. The most notable situation for me was when I picked up the kids to celebrate Christmas with my family and they started telling me about how they celebrated Christmas day with OM and his family. I wasn’t aware they were going to do that and that really hit me hard. Not a great way to start a 5 hour drive. Though to be clear, mostly I am doing real great and continue to move forward.
I am definitely not going to say "STILL?". It's been almost four years for me and I still miss the person he used to be and being a family. Last night I told my daughter about the first time XH met in person and he showed up with a bouquet of flowers and the biggest smile I had ever seen. I told her that I took one look at him and my heart just melted...and it was the same for him as he wrote a song about me that night...lol. I think she really appreciated knowing that but it was definitely a bittersweet walk down memory lane. But...like Steve said...that was who he used to be, not who he is now.
You're doing great Mumin. This stuff just gets easier as time goes on. (((HUGS)))
