ruthfully? As messed up as he was, that gesture was actually genuine - for both of us women!
You thought it was genuine. He was two timing you, so how genuine was his love for you in reality? The thing you need to understand is that women don’t realize they are being gamed by a player. That is why they fall for him and fall hard. Even though it is obvious to everyone else, the women rewrite reality and make excuses for the guy’s poor behavior trying to justify why he is a good person and loves them genuinely!
Originally Posted by Ginger1
I was willing to pick up whatever someone would throw me. I cling to the pathetic crumbs he through me like life. Because I was terrified.
As time went on, I did just want to possibly recreate the family I never had and security i never had. It was a pattern that followed me with my ex and subsequent relationship. And completely backfired. I just ended up alone on the end. I came off probably as desperate and “fake” to some . I can see that now .
Great introspection, Ginger. You may have made mistakes in life but knowing what you know is influencing you as a mother and will benefit your daughter. Sometimes good things do not directly change our lives but changes it through others that are important to us!
Also, know that you have a good family now. It may not be a traditional two parent family that society thinks is ideal but you do have a great family. You have your D, your dad, step mom and the way you describe it even your ex and his wife are part of your extended family
Originally Posted by Ginger1
I’m killing it some areas of my life, and failing at others . Que ser a ser a
Such is life! Focus on the areas that are good and know that in time everything will change, for better or worse
