Don, i get what you are saying. It is sad and it is frustrating and I see what you are saying . I have actually overdone many areas of my life that were exceedingly difficult . And have become somewhat successful. Just not in relationships.
It's very rare that a person nails every aspect of their life. Ones with great careers sacrifice relationships and friends. Ones with great families sacrifice careers. Some people struggle in friendships. Some people struggle with health. Relationships may be your Achilles heel. I know you will say I would sacrifice it all for a good relationship but a person in a good relationship with poor health would sacrifice the relationship for good health.
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I did spend much time in therapy working on why o accepted what I did from my ex.
What did you learn? Have you changed?
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I was afraid to be totally alone in this world.
It's funny how what we fear we attract.
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As time went on, I did just want to possibly recreate the family I never had and security i never had. It was a pattern that followed me with my ex and subsequent relationship. And completely backfired. I just ended up alone on the end. I came off probably as desperate and “fake” to some . I can see that now .
Great introspection!
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After M, my very last chance at love and family rolled into one, I can’t connect.
Your very last chance at love and family. Is this statement true or false? The truth is you don't know.
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One little red flag and I run. Is it good or bad?
Depends on the red flag. You find out he's a murder; run. You find out he leaves the toilet seat up; don't run.
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At the end of the day I want someone to genuinely be there for me as I am them. I will love them even when things are sh!t. And it will be returned.
That sounds like unconditional love which is very rare today. Ask CW.
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I have some pretty solid relationships . I am the caregiver at work. Everyone comes to me personal or professionally. Each of us nurse case managers work with a social worker. Me and mine are like besties. We take care of each other . We feed each other healthy. We confide in each other, we give positive reinforcement at work and personally. We are completely and wholly honest with each other. She is like the best most honest at vulnerable true relationship i have, believe it or not . I know i am capable, lol. Every other pairing on the units envy our professional and personal relationship.
Not many co-workers have this relationship.
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I just can’t get it right with a guy . I don’t know.
It's all about the attitude. I haven't had it with the right guy yet.
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In other news. My dad and stepmom have been great. We bought a new really nice couch last night ( won’t be here until may) he isn’t comfortable on the one I have so he purchased a new one. I offered to pay every other payment. He won’t take take it. My kitchen counters were installed today and they are incredible . Some plumbing issues, but my dad took care of it . Next 2 days will be backsplash. My kitchen is amazing .
Your dad is bada$$.
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I’m 4 weeks I will be in FL for my Friends baby shower. First baby at 41. ( she turned 41 today) she’s a beautiful story of making a huge move and finding love . It’s an inspiration.
That could be you in 4 years.
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And my D called me excitedly from school today. She’s been asked to do honors geometry next year. She’s got her dads math brain but always underestimates herself.
Great! See dueche bag was good for something.
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I’m killing it some areas of my life, and failing at others . Que ser a ser a
Just like 90% of the people in this world. Chin up tits out!
