Although I can't possibly imagine taking her back at this point (not that she'd even try), I also hate my kids have to bounce back and forth and don't have the family unit they deserve and also if I'm being honest feel embarrassed at times I'm divorced.
So what if she said "BL I am so sorry for what I have done, it was a big mistake and I will spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you and the kids"?
Well similar to what I said to SteveLW in OB's thread regarding boundaries around a PA, I'll preface my answer with "you never truly know how you'll respond until you're tested in real life", but honestly believe I would not and could not accept her back at this point. Too much damage has been done. Lies, betrayal...etc. I honestly don't feel a desire to be with for her anymore, but still lament the impact to my family situation. It's a odd paradox. Mad at the forced change in situation paired with the knowledge that even so there's no going back.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21
