Yes, Thank you Andrew & DnJ Your words are like hugs to my soul, today.
I am having a bad stretch...feeling sorry for myself, cooped up in the cold of winter, still healing from the surgery, missing H. I have never been a patient person, so this is driving me crazy.
I so look forward to spring and to beable to get outside with out my face freezing off. I will also have a ton to do to get the yard and pool ready for summer. I want to stay in our home, for now, guess I have to wait and see what happens with the D. But I love my back yard and the pool, we have put a ton of work in it.
I know what I have to do, but knowing and doing...god this is hard. I need to focus on me and stop worrying about what H is doing. Thats / he / us, is a hard habit to break. Its hard for me to understand how he can hurt me so bad, old H would never, never hurt me. I need to accept that H is gone now and MLC H totally different person. Self centered, selfish and cowardly running away from himself. I get it, see it, but its so sad, and it hurts. Such a waste of a beatiful life.
