Thank you guys!! Had a good cry, but had to stop, made my incisions hurt, lol...
Sometimes I feel so strong, but then H does something nice, like just now. My nephew sent H & me a email asking for a donation for his baseball team. H sent me a email to send them some money. Then he text me to see how I was healing from surgery. Seriously WTF is what I want to scream at him....

I know he is just doing things to make himself still feel like he is a nice guy even though what he is doing in not nice guy behavior. So baffling, that disconnect from the reality of ones actions.