Thanks DnJ, You just help me answer my own questions about overthinking and reading to much into his actions. My thoughts on his IC, has always been that he is using the C to justify his actions, create his own narriative, make himself feel like he is doing the right thing, that he is still a good guy, not actually doing any work in IC. Since he has moved out I can see his struggle with trying to be, or think he is a "good person" He as even said to my "I'm still a good person, I just had a A and fell in love. These things happen" So many things wrong with that statement, not even gonna touch it. SMH. - these things don't just happen, married people don't date and keep secrets, good people don't have affairs...OMG..Ughhhh. (ok I will stop with that rant) This would also explain why he appears to be nicer towards me in his texts over the 2 weeks...God I am such a sucker... Just gotta keep focus on no contact.... and wait to reply...
Kml - I have already planted the seed with H that I have some new friends, that I have been going out with. H asking about the flowers and checking the phone bill for new numbers... have peaked his intrested. How fair that takes him is anyones guess, but I will fight for my M in ever way I can without giving away my cards. I know my old H would not want another man poking around, what this H does, who knows..
DnJ, H knows that I want him and our M, at least thats what I want now. Not sure how much of this sh*t a person can take. Like I said for me M is forever, you don't walk away. I have told him that I am trying to move on, but it is hard. I don't want to trick him back, just want to help push him along a bit. Due to my actions and what I have said and done over the last 8 months, H has still not had the reality that I would walk away. Even after I filed for the D, I continued to tell him I didn't want this, I don't want this. OHH.. I have made so many mistakes by letting him know that I wasn't going anywhere. So maybe this is my form of damage control, with my M on the line it is worth taking the risk. As far as actually moving on, oh god no, that would take me years.
Also I have been talking to the OW"s hubby since this happened in December. OW is not happy with her H that he is talking to me, my H has never mentioned it to me. But I think that OW was under the impression that her H and I were becoming close, too close for her comfort. She actually yelled at him for it. LOL.. Insert evil laugh, let her think what she wants.
