H just left. Asked about the flowers on the table right away, and if I was going out tonight. I said yes, dinner and drinks with some friends. Said flowers were from a friend Talked about the D, and assest etc. I asked him if that is what he still wants, and he said "well we can't go back". I said yes, i know that.
I know I should not have done this, but I hugged him really tight and told him that I miss him. Said I was trying to move on but it is hard, I had to walk away for a bit because I started to cry. Asked if he was thinking of getting his own place, he said its cold out so not right now, but maybe. He seem to be my H while he was here, eyes were there normal bright blue, which made me more confused and sad. Maybe he did just fall in love with someone else, am I wrong. Is this a MLC? or a exit affair? But normal emotionally healthy people do not have affairs!! So confused.. Said he miss us.
I held it together for most of his visit..but I wanted more.. I wanted my H...
Talked about his medical issues. He has a pinched nerve in his neck that has been going on for 7 months.
Talked about a cat video I posted of a fluffy orange cat riding in a toy car, he said it reminded him of our Archie (also fluffy orange cat) and how Archie would do that. We laughed, I said that why I posted it, because it even looked like Archie.
Said he would come over and take care of the snow shoveling for me. Asked if I had a ride to and from my surgery, if not he would take me.
I probably pushed too hard, so I will continue to back off and not contact him. I am sure there is more but I am processing.
