Good morning, Need to rant a bit befor H gets here.
Feeling odd this morning, yesterday I was kind of excited, looking forward to see H today. This morning, not so much. Actually I am feeling kind of angry. Why be nice and offer to shovel??? At the end of the day he is still with the OW, and I am alone. He still is living with and sleeping with that nasty POS. Ughhh. so many different emotions this morning.
Mad at him for being so f-ing stupid, mad at him for not being a stronger person and standing for our M and believing in us, for not facing his issues, for blaming everything on me. Mad at him as I think about all of the lies and deceit from the last 8 months. The way he treated me, all of it. And today is what???? he feels guilty about his actions, so he is finally gonna stop over and grace me with his presents...He is screwed up, this is his doing, not mine. I did nothing wrong, I did not break my vows. Yet here I am dealing with all of the Sh*t that he has caused, while his is out there living it up and partying like a rockstar with no care in the world.
He still hasn't really had or faced any consequences for his actions, only thing he has said is the he is upset because I get all the sympathy and he has to deal with the backlash everywhere he goes. Oh poor baby, when you flaunt you affair and run around like you are the new hot couple in town to all of our friends, while you are both still married, what did you expect?? A party, congrautlation on destroying and emotionally devastating your spouses?? Good job on fooling everyone..Seriously I don't think that will hit him in the face until after the 1st court date to set temp spousal support. Which will just piss him off when he realizes how much money he will owe me.
