Good Morning E & K Thank you for you advice, experiences and everything.
K- loved your example on smiling and feeling the emotions, so simple and eye opening. And you are right she is not a prize. I AM.... I have to stop obsessing about her and what they are doing. I am working on stopping my communication with him, since last Friday. I am doing better with this than I have in the past. If he contacts me, which he did Monday mornig, I try to wait for a while before I respond. He is stopping by our home this Saturday to pick up some tax paper for filing last years return. I am nervous about this as I have not seen him in person since Dec. 2. I plan on looking fabulous when he shows up, whether I have plans or not. I know that I need to controll my emotions and keep myself in check, but I honestly don't know how I am going to get through that... Gonna try to just smile, smile, smile.. and remind myself if I cry it will ruin my makeup.. When in reality I just want to hold him and never let him go.. ugh..
E- Yes, everything I have been reading about MLC'ers does look like a script, all following simular path. Really disturbing to wrap ones head around. Its like a switch flipped in them and everything that was once the center of there world is now what they hate. The mood swings...omg... When H was still living with me it was really torture. He would come home from work, late, eat dinner and sit on his phone playing games all night. No conversation, no physical contact or affection little to no eye contact. When we would go to bed he would hug the edge of the bed, and actually fell off a few times..lol I read on this site, MIL for Dummies, that is my H to a T. He puts on a - everything is fine, Im fine, this is my new life, I'm in love, be happy for me - face for his friends. And most are buying into it, so frustrating. They have not had to witness what I have.
Last night on of our mutual friends called me to talk. Said he was out at the bar that H & OW were last Friday. He told me that the OW didn't look at him, say hi or even acknowledge his presence, just ignored him. Why would she, she knows what she is doing is wrong and that our close friends do not approve of what they are doing. Also told my that in previous conversation H has said he just wasn't happy with me and has felt that way for years. That hurts to hear! I know he is still justifing his action and trying to put on a face for our friends, but it still hurts. I am trying to not have contact with our friends, I just do not want to hear about there magical fantasy fun life. (insert eye roll)
I guess right now I am just trying to just make it day by day. Texted my brother and sister last night to see if they want to go on a beach vacation. I need to get out of the cold, I need a beach like yesterday. Toes in the sand, a tan and a margarita, ahh that sounds like heaven right now.
