A few more thoughts, since I am on a roll... The night he left I got this from H.... I tried to get our connection back but I can't (never stopped the A to give it a chance)... I need to leave you so you can heal, You deserve better than me, you can have the house I want you to have it, We had a great life together and lots of great memories I will never forget that, I will always care about you, will always have love for you

When talking about our R after he left... how would we even fix this, how could we ever come back from this, why do you even want to be with me, I am not a bad person, nothing is wrong with my head, your family hates me now,We had a great life together and lots of great memories I will never forget that, I will always care about you, will always have love for you