Valeska19, My last two marriages, the first, I was just too young, we grew apart and he cheated. My second marriage I thought was great. I found out after 3 months (post incident) or so when I was out of town doing clinical for my graduate program, he cheated. I could not get past either of them. It felt “easier” to walk away from something I could justify (maybe). I do have plenty of friends I could stay with and he doesn’t control the money. We have a joint account but each of us have separate accounts. I refuse to leave my animals. I have three cats. He loves them and would feed them but I doubt he’d clean their boxes. In the past when I’ve had to travel he did and maybe he would now. I was diagnosed with a pulmonary embolism on 1/20/22. I am on a high dose of blood thinner right now so all of my things I enjoy doing are taking a backseat so that I can heal. It is very cold here with snow/ice on the ground so I have to even be careful walking as to not fall. I love my work and tend to pour myself into work. After another week or so on such I high dose, I will start to taper down and be more active again. On the normal I am very active with biking and I play roller derby. But with covid our practices had to stop. We are scheduled to return to practice 2/20/22 but it looks like I will be in a coaching role for a bit until I’m off if this medication. Many different dynamics going on.
