Glutton for punishment

[BL42]

Ginger,

I'm sorry you're depressed and struggling. It must be difficult to deal with work during COVID, financial stresses, serve as the primary parent raising your daughter....all on your own for such a long time and without the partner you had signed up for it with.

I don't know you IRL but get the sense you're a wonderful mother and will be a great catch for someone when the person and time is right. I'll echo what others have said about opening up to the possibility of giving the 1st dates a 2nd or 3rd date to see if a connection/attraction develops. Or, perhaps don't date at all for awhile to reset your mindset.

I work hard, very hard, and i am broke. I lay up at night looking for a solution and right now the only one is to find more ways ot make money.

I don't know the history of your child support agreement with ExH - you've mention he makes less than you and therefore doesn't pay much, but also have said between him and OW they go on vacations and buy things you can't afford. They seem to want to be friends with you and act almost like a family in some sense. I wonder if you could approach him about the topic and ask for a bit more financial support for your daughter as you're the primary? Perhaps they've be reasonable there as time has passed, considering they invite you over for game night. Or maybe I'm completely off base.

I do all the heavy lifting in parenting even though my ex and i get along. I am the problem solver, the motivator, the one on top of her school,her friends, her healthcare, her everything. My ex does none of that. He has no clue in what's going on in her life.

I'm sure this must be incredibly difficult, but you're getting the better deal. Poor guy...he won't know what he's missed.

Hang in there! Keep being a great mom!