kml, I think snow white hair is awesome! My grandmother and my aunt both had it, and they looked better for it. They were both had excellent dress sense, and the white hair just made them look...I suppose....majestic.
It is sad that CMM's hopes and dreams didn't quite make it, but the fractured relationship with his children is what I find the most upsetting. Dying without my children near me is one of my nightmares.
As for photos, at BD I packed away all of the wedding photos, but left the professionally taken family ones out. Over time I put most of them away though, but there is one still there. I look at the couple we were from time to time and wonder what happened. I don't feel as sad as I used to, but as Don says, it's all a part of my life. I can't change it, and I don't want my children to think I want to.
Ricky Gervais is an excellent show writer! I love "After Life" - typical British humour mixed in with (untypically British) emotional stuff. He is so very unpretentious, raw and real, yet intelligent and sometimes quite sophisticated.
I hope you're taking care of yourself. I'm sure there will be more joy for you in the future, but right now you are just putting one foot in front of the other. This too will pass.
