I continue to just feel a generel blahness in regard to my m.

I don't know exactly why and I don't know if I even mind much anymore...well I probably do since I'm bothering to write about it here.

I just don't feel much progress or growth or connection.

I feel much like I did pre bomb...maybe at times a little better and maybe at times a little worse.

I suppose part of the problem may be that though ow apears to be gone the main "issues" in the m have yet to be resolved and don't seem to be resolvable.

h still works too much and probably always will.

h still doesn't make time for us and probably never will.

I know there are differing ways I can look at the "issues" to put a possitive spin on them and thus possibly set about some change but I'm tired...I'm just tired of trying to spin..I've been trying to make this r work since long before any bombs were ever dropped and though some changes are occassionaly produced they never seem to be lasting...just satiating.

as usual,

LL