I honestly don’t know why I keep trying. I’m used to being alone. I rather have a deep connection that a superficial one. The HHH actually is not for me I realized this year. I don’t just need someone to watch TV with or go to dinner with. I can do that on my own. I need someone who I can actually deeply connect with . I have only found found very superficial, even the good people I met. And I think I more desire the extended family and friends a partner could provide me, sadly enough.
Consider how many of us even on this forum are single and value that sort of deeper connection enough to work for it--half? Most singles OLD. It doesn't seem like it should be that hard online or offline if we're valuing the aspects of people that lead to a happy life, if we're working on the parts of ourselves that are obstacles to us seeking them or them seeking us. I wish I had an answer for why you're having such a hard time online. I will wish for your success offline.
