BTtfly- it was a fear for my coworkers response. His is not a fear response. Sadly, I can tell the difference between the scared, altered due to medical condition, and just an awful human being . He probably falls between the latter two. Went to the ICU today. I don’t wish death on anyone . Sometimes it becomes a natural consequence. It was more like a “ is this what you wanted? Moment? Here ya go! Everyone is completely burnt out. It is worse than the the beginning. The survival rate is better, but the hospitalization rate is worse and there is no one to take care of these people. And everyone has been stretched to the max already.
As far as my date. Not really attracted, nice, but gave me a weird vibe. He thinks I’m amazing ?!! It was an hour and half dinner. I’m not all that amazing. Before the date he was never inappropriate sexually , but did let me know multiple times he found me “very attractive”.
I think someone really needs to wow me now. My heart just isn’t in it. I have went on a record number of dates since June. I really do need to stick to the break I was on. I’m just not feeling it.
D14 was so funny. She new I was going on a date. It almost didn’t happen because of his work, and she said “mom, you really need to go and get out an socialize” have I become a hermit and I don’t even know it? I didn’t want to go tonight and I was telling her I want to stay home in Jammie’s with her and the dog and some people aren’t lucky in love and that is probably me. She says “ you really just need friends, mom, they are so much better”
