I just cannot imagine you as a Stepford wife on anti- depressants or other drugs. You are disillusioned with what you thought you were trying to regain with the H after he came back. He fell right back into the old patterns and you kept learning and trying to make the situation better.
Workaholics are tough to be married to as most of their emtional energy goes to the job. The spouse is often shorted emotional involvement because it's all been used by everyone else. You and the kids need and deserve it too.
It hurts when you are always last. I think about all the joy, love and vitality that you have and I wonder if your H appreciates you in any other capacity other than housekeeper and caretaker. It almost seems like he wants you to take care of all the household things, raise the kids, etc, and he is content to contribute a paycheck and that's it. Selfish of him to say that everything is his. You both worked for it but I guess he cannot see that in his mind.
