Hi BL42, thank you for checking in. I wrote an elaborate post two days ago, addressing everyone who replied to me, but I haven't seen it here. Perhaps, I forgot to press 'post reply,' or it's still needing to be approved.
I'm meeting with the lawyer today, which feels very very strange. The communication between my h and I is extremely limited. I last talked to him when I asked him about the lawyer he retained. He has since sent me a few one sentence messages. The last message pertained to some of the difficulties he's facing. This is undoubtedly true, however, my previous automatic response would have been to offer instant comfort and/or solutions. This time, I did not reply (it wasn't a question). My therapist told me I am always out to 'rescue/help' people, but don't ask for help myself. Though I have a 'helping' profession, I'm trying to change this in my personal life.
I feel a lot of resentment towards my h, partially because our son is really struggling and I'm left to handle this by myself. I am shocked as to how little my h inquires about him.
On a good note, I am happy to go back to work. I love my work and currently, it's where I socialize. I am also going to an event this week, the presenters of a podcast I like to listen to are in town. I'm going by myself, which is new to me, but I'm excited to go nonetheless.
