FWIW, I would allow myself revenge fantasies sometimes, to include calling the place of business and blowing up all the careers involved, to calling the top officer of the branch of service and have him smacked with punishment.....it was all fantasy. It helped, in it's own way. Then I took a deep breath and released that vengeance to God. That helped in a great way.
If I can't change the feeling, I can certainly change the thought. So, at times, if I wanted to really get dirty and think about how I would ruin him, I did that. And then I decided, chose, who I want to be and where I would spend my energy. And after time and healing and setbacks and forward movement, I just don't need to do that anymore. BUT. I give myself permission to feel however I feel and accept and release it.
You truly are doing great!!
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ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
