LL.........I too have been lurking..I am so sorry for your frustrations...and I do know some of your history...you were there way back when and lifted me up many times.......you are strong, but tired..unsure where to go from here..unsure if what you have is enough...it's ok to have all those feelings and I know from your past that you are smart enough to not do anything too fast or in haste.
I don't know what to say about your h......do you think it is guilt? I do know with mine, that there was guilt,and until he was ready to face that..he could not move on with our m...but how do you pull all that out of him???????Thats a question with no answer......we can't fix anyone elses problems...mind..heart..they have to do it themselves...will they lose things along the way(family..)..maybe,but it is something they have to decide..and you have to decide if the patience...wait..forgiveness and all that goes into it is worth it. Do what your gut tells you..do what you need to do for YOU..and of course for your kids.
