Another day in the life of

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Ginger1,

That made me smile . We have been talking for years about going to Paris for her sweet 16. We are less than 2 years away. I’m afraid I won’t have the money, but I sure will try to save. I hope she does become my travel buddy one day.

Make it happen! Regardless of the finances. That trip would surely be an experience the two of you would remember for the rest of your lives.

Tonight I finally had to take up my ex’s offer to come o we for a game night. I had no out, D really wanted me to come. So I did.

Ex showed me his new “man cave “ which of course included the bar I got him for a wedding gift.

Funny, ExW got me a bar for a present as well. Even though it was a very thoughtful and generous gift it actually made me question things a little early on because I knew she was in debt and couldn't really afford it. I ended up selling it post-D for a decent amount of cash...figured if she got to keep the engagement ring after ending the marriage I could profit from the bar.

then we played Mario kart

S6 and my dad (not the video game type) have been bonding over Mario Kart since ExW left. Pretty cool to see.

I do see how he jabs at her every chance he gets like he used to do to me. I don’t miss that.

Interesting observation. Not your monkey / not your circus anymore, but I'd wonder how she feels about it.

Leaving my daughter behind is weird .how can these people damn near destroy me, not care what they did to me, but still enjoy my company? None of it makes sense

Agreed. Bizarro world.

I feel like I am betraying myself. ...It makes me feel like I am a doormat. Like showing you can damn near kill me, but I will still be kind. What kind of person does that? A weak one.

But I just don’t care anymore. I think a part of me died.

My daughter is happy, can see us all get along. I guess that’s all that matters. But it’s really a mixed bag of emotions for me every time I do it.

I think it's great you're willing to do things to make your daughter happy, but you do a lot for her...doesn't mean you have to do this. Granted you're a lot farther along than I am, but I can't imagine going over to ExW's place to socialize with her, OM2 & the kids. It seems like it (understandably) causes you spin. It's good you don't fight and are amicable with your ExH, but it's also OK to let her know you'd prefer not to be besties with him and OW.

Not that ExW would even invite me. As an aside...I wonder if there's a difference between men and women in this regard? Seems like on here the WAH/WHs are more likely to come back to the relationship or at the very least want to continue to be friends/socialize with the LBS than the WAW/WWs. Just an observation.

I just feel like it’s my turn for my own little bit of happiness with another person

Definitely!

Working from home again tomorrow and off Friday. I’m supposed to work Saturday, and I better be because that’s time and a half. New Year’s Eve D got invited to a party but doesn’t want to go, and is going to spend it with me. We are going to hibachi.

Kampai!