And this is what frustrates me and stopped me posting on forums. I don't know how to explain to you or anybody else, my experience. I type it and it is so massively unbelieveable that people think I'm making it up - this thing has been terrifying! I have one friend who has seen it first-hand including content of legal documents and he can't believe his eyes.
Certainly don't want to push you away from this board. It's a great place for folks in our situation with a lot of good people taking their own time to help others. I'm not saying you're making it up, but am observing even in your response just now you're focusing a lot on external factors (stbxw, Health Services, 1st lawyer, neighbors...etc.) whereas the best way to improve your situation is to look inward and work on yourself.
Originally Posted by smilie
I need to work on not letting my mind get the better of me
Yes! Absolutely.
Originally Posted by smilie
I'm also having regular couselling
That's great. Keep it up!
Originally Posted by smilie
It's only 3 weeks since I have moved that I have stopped shaking - that's 6 months of continual shaking, although I can still feel the anxiety is still quite high.
Did you talk to a doctor about anti-anxiety/anti-depressant medication? I'm not a big pill/drug guy, but ADs and sleeping pills can help folks temporarily through a difficult time.
Originally Posted by smilie
I've made a few connections round here and go to the coffee shop to journal a couple of times a week. A friend bought me a gift card for the drinks :-)
That's wonderful :-)
Keep moving forward smilie. It WILL get better.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21
