"I feel like a damn waw only I don't have the balls to really be one."
Geez LL,
I hope not!!!!
Your argument with your H sounds pretty normal, and nothing different than any of us have heard, including I'm sure, Michelle! You said you think your H expects you to do all the changing, isn't that the basis of DB'ing? I think there's even a chapter titled "Why should I be the one to change"
You've seen all the pain and suffering of all of us going through the D process, and your H is right in that sense, you do have a lot to lose. Please hang in there LL, getting D'd is no fun. Most H's don't live up to their W's expectations, I know I didn't. But sometimes they think you are expecting too much.
Don't pay any attention to the mean things he says or does, like being glad you were gone, or walking away mowing the lawn when he didn't get all your attention, that's just the way men deal with it, by saying and doing bad things. Can't you see your M is classic textbook???????