thanks for all the replies folks, I know I've been less and less available to offer anything to others round here as time has gone on.

I left that letter for h to find this am (he slept in the guest room) I doubt I'll hear anything about it.

How the argument started? seems we both feel compelled to blame the other for things and one of us has no understanding of looking at things from another perspective.

Yes h did say such things in anger but they were true...I felt them before leaving on the vaca so it's not that they were just words cast out in the heat of the moment it was simply the heat of the moment that made him be honest.

it seems that because h is the one that makes the money the house is HIS, the money is HIS...after all he sent me on the vaca didn't he? gee I thought it was my money too? so when he went to new orleans for super bowl, or houston for super bowl or miami once each year for football he sent himself?

Yes h did give me the "your such a bitch", "you don't even know what reality is" "you don't know how good you've got it" "why don't you find some guy to fill all your needs" "your a pshychopath" "your damn right I was looking forward to you not being around" and a whole lot of other not so nice things.

I'm tired of dealing with him.

LL