Joe. great thoughts here! Well done. As the anniversary of my BD looms (12/23) I am again in a weird place with my W and MR. I get like this almost every year at this time, wondering if I did the right thing by fighting so hard to save everything. Truth is I was extremely unhappy prior to BD myself, something that I forgot the minute I found the messages between my W and OM.
So I think today I will allow myself to really fully experience the emotions I am dealing with. Just sit with them and not try to fight them. Not even really try to understand them but acknowledge what the feelings are and just let them be. That's my gift to myself today.
Someone here once told me to basically feel all the emotions and not run from them. It was great advice. I might not always like the feelings that I experience, but I can recognize almost my whole range of emotions now, and I have learned that not a single feeling is permanent. It will pass and you will feel differently. They're like waves in an ocean.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018
