We’ve had many discussions about the fact that just because he has them doesn’t mean he has to take them. And it’ll be three weeks since he first made the request (waiting period is 15 days). He hasn’t been eating hardly anything the last few days - just a few bites here and there. His oxygen level is ok (on ten liters oxygen) he has abdominal pain whenever he eats, he can still walk to the bathroom but usually needs help as he’s a bit unsteady. Sleep is very disrupted.
He’s a stubborn man who doesn’t want to end up “crying in pain in bed“. He hates the idea of losing control. I tried to talk him into waiting until Friday (which would be more convenient for me) but he insists he can’t wait that long. And who am I to say? I’m not in his position. He’s definitely going downhill in the last week and there’s no hope of a cure, so who am I to insist he suffer longer? I think I would fight longer if it was me, but then again, who knows how I would feel when the time came? He’s fought a good fight through 3 1/2 years, most of it on chemo. He’s entitled to decide when enough is enough for him.
