Scott, I truly hope you can find the peace you seek. One thing to keep in mind, you mention no one is 100%. I think that is why the divorce rate, especially for 2nd and 3rd marriages, is so high. People think that they need someone else to validate them. And when that inevitably slows down or stops all together, they go out seeking the next "high". This is why being as close to 100% whole individually as you can be is so important. The threat of a future BD with someone new is real when you refuse to do the work. I disagree with much of your self assessment. I think you've been looking for band-aids to put over the gaping wound that is a severed limb. BUT, that is the good news, you get to decide for yourself! Regardless of what some random on an internet forum says.
I meant it when I said you have come a long way. But I also meant it when I alluded to the fact that you still have a ways to go. Good luck.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
