Thank you my friend dawn. And yea, love is a choice. No one has actively chosen to love me yet. It is what it is. I hope one day makes makes the mutual choice
Honestly, this has been the first time in months that I am talking to no man and have no desire either. It’s peaceful. No one is disappointing me. No flakiness. No wondering. I am much more content this way. Do I miss intimacy! Yes! But emotional intimacy is what I miss and I haven’t found it in a long time. Everything has been so superficial. Superficial does not suit me . I need substance.
For myself, I’m looking to get back into my fitness. My knee actually feels a lot better. I have lost op discomfort but the problems I had are gone. Hopefully it stays that way. I was thinking about getting back into heavy lifting. I am strong, I enjoy it, and it would be rewarding.
I don’t want to put my energy into dating for a while. I’m open to a nice mutual relationship, but I don’t want to search for it. I want to put my energy into me. At least I appreciate it
